Positivity

Well I'll be!

Let me start this post by being honest and spilling all the stuff out. I'd admit that I went through a slump and I'm not yet out of that slump. Let's say I'm starting to move towards recovery.

Early this year, I resigned from the company I'm working for. It was the very first company I worked for and I lasted almost 3 years there. Quite long huh? Why'd you think I quit? The reason... There are a lot of reasons that I could enumerate. Siting them one by one here will only make me try to recall all the bad stuff that happened. I'll make it short and simple: I wasn't happy anymore.

So I summoned the courage I saved up since I was a kindergarten student (for all those times that I didn't speak up for myself... for all those times that I didn't use even a drop of courage) and resigned from my company.

I think I used up all that courage coz I lost the strength to find a new job. I spent so much time moping around.

But the good thing is... I think I'm seeing some light (like what I posted on my previous entry).

You know when you're depressed it isn't hard to see all the bad things in life. Negativity is like rust. It eats you up.

That's where positivity is very vital. It was hard for me to shift my perspective 180 degrees but I did and I feel happy.

How did I find the will to think positive?
I realized that thinking positively is impossible if you've got all these fears in your mind like "they might make fun of me" or "I might not get the job...".... 'Might' is a very powerful word. Try using it the other way like "I might get the job...". Quite a huge difference. I even feel different while saying the two sentences. "I might not get the job" makes me feel like a dwarf. But saying "I might get the job" makes me feel like a flower about to bloom. Seriously! I also have 2 images in mind. The first one is an image of a doctor and a patient in a dark hospital room where the doctor's like saying "you have 2 months!". While the second sentence gives me an image of a guy who bursts into a bright room shouting that he got into Harvard to his family!

Fear is so powerful but we don't realize that it's just a product of our imagination! Remember, some of the things that we imagine, no matter how good they are, don't happen at all. So I guess it's best to stop being afraid and just try doing whatever it is that you're afraid of then see if your imagination is right. If it is right, you've already done it! Congratulations! Fear no more! It's over. If it's wrong, congratulations! You've done it with a bonus of not having to face your fear!

Well I think being afraid is the only thing that's stopping us from thinking positively. Once we conquer that, it's not very hard to be positive anymore.